days like these remind me that growing older is a bitter experience. Only now can I appreciate the freedoms and the opportunities I had when I was younger. Back then, it seems like there were so many open doors. Every day I get older these doors are closing in terms of relationships, learning opportunities, and most importantly, in terms of my career. When you’re younger, you can’t imagine not being able to obtain any job..if you work hard you’ll succeed right? But when you’re out of college you realize the limitations…self imposed limitations. Why didn’t I work harder in college? or why didn’t I simply choose a correct major? I can’t believe that I have to make such difficult choices now in terms of my career after believing for so long that anything was achievable. Hindsight is 20/20. I wish I was able to be a kid again. Seeing my dad today made me realize that I missed that comfort. That comfort that your parents will always be there for you and will make the right decision for you when you yourself can’t. The ability to shrug something off and think that your parents will take care of it. That’s immature of me and probably a flaw…I’m spoiled. Maybe I deluded myself into thinking that would last forever, or didn’t want to think about what happened after I gained the independence that I sought. And now when times are hard like this why do I want to turn to….
